I miss You and I am coping, self-harm.

Its been a long time. Its been a long time since I have seen you my friend. My sharp-straight-edged little friend. I have missed you just as much as I miss my father. You were there for me when he was absent. Holding you in between my thumb and pointer fingers, I just miss having… Continue reading I miss You and I am coping, self-harm.

EcT

Ready for a time out she said to me, as the Revital began to drip repetitively through the bluish cord inside my body. Ten... Nine... Eight... The lights turned off and in my mind, I could recall nothing. Like a spreadsheet on the table laid out for all to see, I nervously faded into the… Continue reading EcT

SELF-HARM BEHAVIORS OTHER THAN CUTTING YOU DIDN’T KNOW WERE SELF-HARM

Photo by Tookapic on Pexels.com BURNING HAIR PULLING HAIR PLUCKING(EYEBROWS, EYELIDS, PUBES ETC) BINGING PURGING RESTRICTING AVOIDING CUTICLE CHEWING PICKING ABRUPTLY STOPPING MEDICATION CARVING HEAD BANGING PUNCHING DRUGS ALCOHOL SLEEP SEX *this is not a complete list of behaviors. COMMON EMOTIONS TRIGGERING SELF HARM ANXIETY GUILT SHAME ANGER IRRITABLE CONFLICTED *this is not a complete… Continue reading SELF-HARM BEHAVIORS OTHER THAN CUTTING YOU DIDN’T KNOW WERE SELF-HARM

White Walls

Photo by Henry & Co. on Pexels.com The doors to 5A open and the white lights blind my eyes. My eyes are drawn to the white—white walls, white floors, and white ceilings. Men and women in long white coats scurry from one room to the next to pick apart brains and ensure stability. Screams escape… Continue reading White Walls