Searching for the perfect words, keep coming up short. You are my perfect nerd in a world I tend to distort. The ringing in my ears the sweat pouring from my pores a beating heart bleeds a thousand tears each time you come knocking on its door. "I'll love you for a thousand years and… Continue reading My Heart’s Door
Tag: depression
Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm
Photo by it's me neosiam on Pexels.com I realize I hurt myself over and over again. It is literally SOMETHING every day to help me either pass out and forget the world or get up and going and have fun. I cant seem to find the correct balance in life or at least I cant… Continue reading Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm
Hell Invading
Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com ......Enough about my day to day routine. Lets talk about these urges. No I have not used. It has been about 2 or 2 1/2 months since the last time I put that white powder in my nostrils. I never really felt like I had to keep doing it but… Continue reading Hell Invading
A Slippery Slope
Photo by George Becker on Pexels.com The next few days after a self mutilation episode are the hardest. All the guilt sets in and you are left to deal with the repercussions. From my personal experience about one hundred times, that guilt can either fester into shame and spiral you down the depression slide or… Continue reading A Slippery Slope
Jump Starting a Brain in ECT
Photo by rawpixel.com on Pexels.com "Ready for a time out?" She could faintly hear him talking into his recorder."Now relax your arm and start counting backwards from ten", the nurse said as she began to inject her veins with the Brevital and Succinylcholine. Her symptoms had been worsening for quite some time. This was one… Continue reading Jump Starting a Brain in ECT
Misunderstood InSaNiTy 