Paint it Red

It has been exactly 4 months since the last time I encountered you and let you persuade me into ruining my forearms. This is the longest i have gone without seeing you in 5 years. I can feel the blood under my skin flowing throughout my body. I want to empty it so bad but… Continue reading Paint it Red

Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm

Photo by it's me neosiam on Pexels.com I realize I hurt myself over and over again. It is literally SOMETHING every day to help me either pass out and forget the world or get up and going and have fun. I cant seem to find the correct balance in life or at least I cant… Continue reading Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm

Hell Invading

Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com ......Enough about my day to day routine. Lets talk about these urges. No I have not used. It has been about 2 or 2 1/2 months since the last time I put that white powder in my nostrils. I never really felt like I had to keep doing it but… Continue reading Hell Invading

With a Slash of the Wrist

I didn't cut today, despite the urges. No, instead I forced myself to think differently.The feeling of wanting to self mutilate can be compared to that of having an itch but not being able to scratch it. That sounds cliche' but most of the people who will be reading this haven't dabbled into taking a… Continue reading With a Slash of the Wrist