Photo by Yash Lucid on Pexels.com It's cold as hell as I sit out at this lake. This used to be my spot. The spot where I created my most sincere and darkest poems. I used to keep a journal out hereon my daily struggle. From 2013-2016, 4 years, I had wrote my thoughts and… Continue reading Light Up
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Hell Invading
Photo by Skitterphoto on Pexels.com ......Enough about my day to day routine. Lets talk about these urges. No I have not used. It has been about 2 or 2 1/2 months since the last time I put that white powder in my nostrils. I never really felt like I had to keep doing it but… Continue reading Hell Invading
A Slippery Slope
Photo by George Becker on Pexels.com The next few days after a self mutilation episode are the hardest. All the guilt sets in and you are left to deal with the repercussions. From my personal experience about one hundred times, that guilt can either fester into shame and spiral you down the depression slide or… Continue reading A Slippery Slope
Jump Starting a Brain in ECT
Photo by rawpixel.com on Pexels.com "Ready for a time out?" She could faintly hear him talking into his recorder."Now relax your arm and start counting backwards from ten", the nurse said as she began to inject her veins with the Brevital and Succinylcholine. Her symptoms had been worsening for quite some time. This was one… Continue reading Jump Starting a Brain in ECT
Two-Faced
Photo by Engin Akyurt on Pexels.com A sweet innocent smile that welcomes you into a room. words spoken so certainly, she could only have you assume. Confident in her gestures Hides the lack of confidence in herself. Built a wall to protect her She would never show and tell. Her past formed her this way.… Continue reading Two-Faced
Misunderstood InSaNiTy 